Tuesday, October 15, 2013

October already?!

September went by so quick, and so far October is doing the same.  I feel like life is passing me by lately. I'm so busy with my day job, sourcing new music for gigs, DJing, going to school to learn French, and zipping up and down the 401 to visit family (whom I love very much), I don't really have enough time with friends or to myself. I thought after summer was over things would calm down, but they really haven't at all.

I do have both Saturday and Sunday this coming weekend off, I really should take some time with myself and Chris and just relax. Maybe grab brunch with some friends, catch a movie. Not drink my face off!

The day job has been a bit of a roller coaster for, well, the past year really. Never do I really "love" what I do anymore, I go from mildly enjoying it to absolutely loathing it depending on the day. The big underlying problem is I don't feel like this career path is right for me. I don't really have much interest in marketing anymore, and I don't click well with people in the industry. I'm not a "Type A", and I'm too much of an introvert to partake in what I consider to be "fake" socializing. I don't like to play that game... never have and never will. I also find contest winners to be less grateful and more demanding as time goes on. I really feel like a different career is out there for me, something I will excel at and enjoy... I just need to sit down and figure out what that is.

I also sometimes think that maybe this fast-paced, badly planned city is no longer where I want to be. Toronto has so many problems right now... getting anywhere is a nightmare, the nightlife scene is lack-lustre and not what I remember experiencing when I first moved here. My neighbourhood doesn't feel very safe (most don't actually). So the second thing I need to figure with Chris is, do we want to stay here, and if not then where?

Most of this is on the back burner right now as we approach our wedding date, which I'm very excited about! I think our wedding will be a lot of fun, and I can't wait to marry my wonderful partner of 8.5 years. It's about time we tie the knot! :)

Well, it seems like I'm in need of some life changes next year, for now I am just going to try and stay positive and remember that I'm lucky to have a decent job and a nice apartment with my man. Hopefully I will find more time to update this more often and have more exciting things to write about.

Ciao until next time!

Tuesday, August 6, 2013

Bike Rally over - Next stop: Chicago

I say this every summer but I really would love to be less busy next summer.

The bike rally was amazing, life changing, I don't think I need to put much about it here for myself since I'll always remember it. It was fun, challenging, emotional, and made me realize a lot about myself. It's amazing all the things you can discover about yourself on the open road, sitting on a bicycle for 5 hours a day for 6 days. I had a lot of time to think. Sometimes it was great, other times it made me depressed. I faced a lot of demons, and was left to really think about some of the deep internal issues I've been avoiding by keeping busy with life. All in all - I feel great now having faced them and feel like I have a much better perspective on life and my future.  I really needed that time to reflect, more than I knew.

I'll list a few memories by day.

Day 1: I was excited to get on the road, I remember feeling like it took forever. Soon I'd realize every morning took forever :)  I was very excited when we arrived at camp. Took a dip in the lake, it was really rough and rocky and I ended up being covered in algae and seaweed, so went to the local sports complex on the bus for a shower. We were given our team T-shirts and I got to know my team - definitely lots of laughter as somehow got on the topic of how semen "cooks" in the shower like eggs.

Day 2: The longest day - but not as difficult as I expected. We had a bit of rain towards the end. The ferry ride was memorable, got to know people a bit better. Had Nuit Blanche at the camp site, hung up balloons with battery tea lights in them and glow stick balls.

Day 3: Red dress day - wore a sequin red dress. Admittedly felt really uncomfortable rolling into Kingston wearing it, but was delighted to be greeted by locals. Had a bit of anxiety and skipped dinner with the team, but joined them later at Stages to see Miss C at the drag show. She was hilarious. Stayed in the dorm, lucked out and got a big room with a fridge.

Day 4: Started feeling a bit of pain in my wrists and lower back by the end of this day. Had talent night at camp and lead the choreography of "Everybody" by the Backstreet Boys for my team. I did pretty damn good!  A young couple got engaged before our eyes, teared up at that. Laughed and was entertained a lot by the other acts.

Day 5: RAIN!  After lunch it poured on us.  My shoes and gloves were still wet the next day. Our last break was at a Dairy Queen, I remember being so happy to see it as the last half of the day felt extremely long. At camp that night, people shared very touching stories. I really felt for many of the people who shared as they have been through terrible things but overcame it all to be with us on the rally, thanks to PWA in a lot of cases. It was nice to be reminded of the reason why we were doing the rally. Afterwards, my team let some Chinese Lanterns soar into the air from the beach, it was really a great experience to be a part of that with the team.

Day 6: Very scenic entering Quebec and completing the journey to Montreal. Again, the afternoon felt long. I rushed to the last break where we all had to wait until 3:30 to continue into the city together. I waited there for over 2 hours, but was proud of how fast I was able to ride.  I didn't really feel like I was going to be emotional at the end, but I did end up pulling an "ugly cry" after all.  A fun couple days in MontrĂ©al followed.

I'm THRILLED to be home. Chris and I haven't spent a week apart yet in our relationship since we moved in together, I missed him a lot. I'm pretty worn out in general, the scheduling of this Chicago trip may not have been the best planning but I am going to suck it up and make sure I have a good time there. It is one of my favourite cities and some of my favourite people live there who I've not seen in over a year. We're doing the drive there over 2 days, so really it's just the way back that will suck a bit as I'm sure we'll be a bit hungover.

As far as my musical career goes as a DJ, I may be able to add "Producer" to my name soon. At a bike rally charity event I met a nice man who is big into music production and has all sorts of equipment in his home. We've kept in touch and I'll be connecting with him soon to see what we can teach each other about production and DJing. I think meeting him might prove to be pretty pivotal in my career path with DJing.  I have a few events later this month but am happy to be on a bit of a hiatus until then.

After Chicago my nephew will turn 1 on August 17, we'll be down in Windsor for that which will be great as I haven't seen him since June. We'll also meet with our wedding decorator that weekend. Then the following weekend I have gigs Thurs, Fri and Saturday, then another gig the following Friday and that will be Labour Day weekend when we go camping at Cedars with friends... then the summer is over, just like that!  After the wedding and honeymoon next year, I'm definitely going to try and make sure we have some fun weekends in Toronto with friends because we definitely had way too much going on this summer and I really miss everyone and really miss enjoying the city we call home.

Well, this went on longer than expected!  Not sure when I will update again, but until next time :)


Monday, June 17, 2013

Summer is here!

The wall of humidity is upon us!  Today was hot and sunny. Summer was a bit slower this year to hit Toronto than the previous years I've lived here, but it's finally here.

Update on the bike rally - things are going well. I'm just shy of $1,500 in fundraising as of today.  Over the weekend I did my first 100 km ride.  I had a malfunction with my clip-in shoes and pedals, luckily it didn't result in a fall thanks to someone who held me up when we came to a stop. I had to do the ride without the clips on the shoes, which made it really difficult to pedal properly. It wasn't ideal but I figure if I can complete 100 km without full efficiency pedaling, that's a good sign.

Pride is a short 12 days away. Our friend James from Chicago will be staying with us. I'm really looking forward to having a really fun pride weekend. I've been working so hard training for the bike rally, and things have turned around at work for me but I'm still really busy. I'll be DJing one of the beer gardens this year at a prime hour on Pride Sunday, I'm REALLY excited about that. I've already started sorting through music to put a good set together. I have a great long list of options that will work for any type of crowd. I have a feeling it's going to go really well. I'll also be doing the usual 90's night on the Friday at Byzantium. This will be the first time I'll go to Revival on the Sunday without hearing Peter Rauhofer :(  It's going to be a bit sad, but still I love that party and look forward to it.

Our engagement photos turned out great. Here are a few of my favourites:



 



Life's been really good lately. I expect great things this summer, all I hope is that it doesn't go by too fast.

G'nite blog.



Wednesday, June 5, 2013

Turning 28

A couple days ago was my birthday.  I had a fun but crazy weekend, regret partying so much. It's Wednesday night and I'm still hurting a bit, even after sleeping most of the day on Sunday evening and Monday. Since moving to Toronto, I've had a love/hate relationship with alcohol and certain other substances.  I've come a long way from where I was a couple years ago, but I still have my vices.  I'm confident that as the recovery from a weekend like the one I just had becomes more and more hard to manage, the less I will partake in such activities.  I'm slowly phasing it out, having so many other things going on is helping.

Yesterday I spoke with my mother (such a great woman by the way, but I'm sure I'll cover that in a future post) and learned that my Grandpa Bailey is not doing very well. Fainting spells, confusion, general weakness.  I was very sad to hear this news. He's been in the hospital all week. My mom has been visiting him every morning before work, he keeps telling her he just wants to go home and see Grandma. The ambulance sounds are frightening him and he keeps wandering the halls at night looking for her. It's so sad to think of all that going on.  I'll be down there this weekend so I'll definitely pay him a visit, I hope I can help somehow. My Grandma isn't getting around so well either these days. They're at "that age" unfortunately. Sometimes I hope I don't make it to "that age".  My Grandparents have always been very supportive of me, so I am going to try and return the favour as much as possible.

Work has been very busy but I'm starting to buckle down and make sure I stay ahead instead of delaying tasks like I've often done in the past. I've been eating very well lately, only salads for lunch and less snacking at night. I've also vowed cut out french fries, pop and beer for the summer.

Skating has been going well, when I can make it there. Between DJ gigs on Fridays and working late on Wednesdays, it's been difficult.

This weekend Chris and I will be getting our engagement photos done in Windsor. I'll be sure to post some on here.  We're also meeting with our potential wedding decorator.  And most importantly, we'll get to see my parents and Brady!

It's been good to share all this, I was feeling pretty anxious earlier after reading my mom's email about my Grandpa and thinking about the gig I have tomorrow evening at an upscale venue I've never been to. I hope they enjoy the music.

Until next post, Kevin the 28 year old, signing off.

Monday, May 13, 2013

A busy spring

There's been a lot happening since my last update. I took another training ride, this one was 57 km, starting from Warden subway station to Rouge Valley and back.  This ride was much more scenic than the first one I took. During the first half, much of it was a long a trail that took us down to the beach along Lake Ontario. It was a gorgeous day too. I separated from the pack a bit on the way back, it was nice to have part of the ride on my own.  Towards the end I got pretty tired.  Had to hop off my bike for a few minutes and let my legs recharge. I was really happy when I finished though, very proud of myself.  My next ride will be this coming Saturday, a 71 km ride from Finch station to Aurora.  Very uphill for the first half, but very downhill for the 2nd half which I'm sure will be nice.

This past weekend I DJ'd my first night at Mojo Lounge, a new bar started by 2 promoters I have worked with in the past at a couple different venues. The bar is really nice, good crowd too. This coming weekend I'll be opening for Kidd Madonny at Fly - someone I've always admired so it will be good to work with him.

Skating has been going well, I've had 3 sessions so far. Starting to get the feeling back.  My form and jump take-offs are really spot on, but I still haven't gotten the feeling of rotating and landing back. I've tried a few double salchows but only landed 2 of the dozen or so that I've attempted. I think it's because my body is a different size/shape than when I used to do these jumps, and because so much time has passed.

The weather has cooled off the past few days, but I have had a couple nice patio afternoons with friends. Warm weather seems to be scheduled to return by the end of this week.  Should be similar weather for this training ride as we had during the last one.

Had a bit of a "party weekend" this past weekend. Going to try and take it easy for the next few weeks until my birthday weekend.  It takes a lot out of my these days and I have a lot of training to do for the ride.

All in all, things are going well. The bike rally is a huge thing on my mind all of the time. I have to make sure I take the proper steps to prepare myself for it so I feel good about it when it comes.  I know I can do it, just don't want to make it too difficult on  myself by not preparing enough in advance.

Until next update :)
-Kevin

Wednesday, April 24, 2013

Documenting life, therapy through writing & leaving a mark

I've been trying to start blogging again for a while now.  For so long I was stuck on a theme - is the blog somewhere I am going to post about life events or memories I want to document; is it for me to get my feelings out as a form of therapy; am I going to post daily lessons of what I learned each day.

I've come to a conclusion, the theme is going to be ME, and can include any of the above, and more. My goals in writing will be all of the above - to document my life, to grow as a person, to have an outlet where I can sort out my thoughts and feelings, and to have this little piece of the internet where my life will be posted forever. It's neat to think that one day when I'm gone someone might take interest in my life and read about it.

Currently I'm 27. Engaged to be married to my loving partner of nearly 8 years, Chris. Recently an uncle and trying to be a good one to my nephew Brady.  I have a great family and great friends. I have been a DJ for 4 years and enjoy it very much. I work in marketing, which I don't currently believe was the right path for me but I'm making decent money at a small shop that appreciates having me.  I find the job challenging at times and mundane at other times. I find it's either too busy or not busy enough and there's rarely a happy medium.

Lately I've been on terrible sleeping patterns. I get home from work, eat, then nap for hours on end, usually wake up between 10 and 12 and stay up til 3:30, then go back to sleep for a few hours. I know it's temporary because soon I'll be in a different routine. I'll be skating 2 nights a week, which is something I'm finally getting back into after spending a great deal of my life loving the sport. Also, nice weather is just around the corner. We've had an exceptionally bad winter here in Toronto this year and the seasonal depression really got to me; possibly more this year than ever in my life. There's really nothing I enjoy more than a pint on a patio with friends, so I'm really looking forward to the warm weather.

I have signed up for a charity bike ride that is 600 km in 6 days. It's terrifying me a bit, but I really want to prove to myself I can do it. The first training ride left me with a very sore butt. I'll be doing another one this coming Sunday, hoping for less pain afterwards as I get used to the feeling of cycling.

I have reached the position now at my current advertising agency that feels very similar to where I was when I wanted to leave my last job. I have very little interest in the work, and at times that interest makes me not perform all that great. I've been job hunting, which has proven difficult and is actually making me start appreciating the job I have. I think I need to try and turn things around and make more of this job for me. The company I'm at is different than the last one, it has less of a revolving door on it and people seem to be happy in their roles there. I know I can get there too if I just put a little more into it.  I think a lot of the reason I am up at night is because I think about work so much. When I'm there I can't be bothered, but when I'm at home I think of ways I can improve, which become forgotten by the time I drag my tired ass to work the next day. Hopefully this blog will serve as a reminder to me and help me figure things out.

I already feel a bit better about work - glad I decided to get some of my thoughts out.

This summer will be a balance of fun and huge responsibilities, but most of all I think it will be really memorable. I'm excited to get on the ice again and see how my skating legs are. I know that no matter what, the bike rally will be one of the most memorable experiences of my life. Going to Wonderland in a couple weeks with friends, which is great because I love rollercoasters. Going to 2 concerts this summer so far, Passenger and Phish. Going to Sensation, a rave-type event that is world renowned. Lots of great DJ gigs, even a possible gig in Brazil which I'm working on but don't have my hopes up for. I'm excited to live it and to document it.

Not bad for a first post, pretty scattered but I think future posts will have more structure. Or they might not, who knows. :)

-KB